Ya know… I would’ve thought by the time I was 33 years old, I would’ve had my life figured out. When I was younger, I thought things were going to be so much easier than what they are.
Man, was I ever wrong.
I knew I wanted to be a wife and a mother, but beyond that, I had no idea. I always thought THAT would be enough for some reason, but it’s not. It is for me as a woman, but not for our family. I wish that I could just be a wife and a mother and take care of them and our home, but it’s not in the cards. It’s not possible, and frankly, I get bored now that my kids are in school most of the time now. I know the need to be busy, but finding what I need to really set my mind to do- is hard.
I have my writing that I absolutely love to do, but it’s a slow process, and one that has to take more money at first, than I’m able to receive. I guess this is more of my hobby as of now than anything, but I AM getting closer to where I want to be there. Right now, I need to focus on an actual income. The biggest problem for me is that I want to be home when my children are home. I don’t want to send them to daycare. So, the question lies- do I stay home and actually open a daycare? Or do I look for a job that will provide me the hours that I need, along with a fairly good pay? It’s hard… especially around our community. There isn’t a whole lot to offer, when one can only work 6 hours a day, four days a week, and THEN needs her summers and school vacations off, as well. This is what will work for me.
Obviously, I already watch school bus children during the week, but should I open during the day for younger children, too? What do my locals think? Is there a big enough need for this in our community? Are you, in particular, looking for daycare for your little one? I guess I would need to hear some serious feedback, before I really entertained those thoughts more…
What I would really, really LOVE is if a company called me up and said, “Hey, we’re looking for someone to set up a web site for us.” Or, ” Hey, we’re looking for someone that can update our web site and kind of take over that.” Or even, “Hey, we’re looking for someone to write for us on a regular basis about such and such.” Oh, how I would love that! I love children, and I love to care for them- don’t get me wrong! I would also love to write for a living, as well, though… Any takers? I’m available…!
Anyway, to all of you that have figured your lives out by the age of 33, I commend you! I, on the other hand, am still waiting for that day to come. I know it will. I just need to be patient and wait for God’s timing.
Have a wonderful day, everyone!